Sunday, May 29, 2016

Setting Up for Success

When it comes right down to performance time, what do you do to get ready to perform?  What are the notes that you play or the things that you think?  How do you set yourself up for success?

My students are all preparing for our annual spring recital.  We've had our final lessons of the year, and the question I asked everyone was "What do you need to do right before you go on stage to prepare for this piece?"

The answer is different for each of them.  For Carla, playing the Schumann A Major Romance, a slow C#, A, F# slur is going to prepare her embouchure for the descending intervals that start the piece and recur throughout.  For Braydon, playing Handel F major, the biggest issue is tempo and character.  He is to think about the tempo of his slow movement and play the first four notes, beautifully, to himself before he comes out on stage.  For Megan, playing the Jacob Sonatina, it's B and D long tones, to get her sound and vibrato flowing before she starts.  In general, in our lessons, they start their pieces and things are rocky.  I bring their attention to the pertinent skills, and then they play beautifully.  But they won't have me coaching them on the big day.

(Which is THIS Tuesday the 31st, at 7, at Church of the Savior, 1855 N. Hickory in South Bend.  Open to the public.  We'd love to see you there!)

This task applies to me as well. I'm working on an audition for a big orchestra. The situation on stage is one I cannot prepare for fully.  The audition proctor will hand me one excerpt at a time, and I won't know in advance - at all - which pieces will be played or in what order.  Additionally, and this is exclusively my own problem, I'm barely prepared.  I have not spent months studying these pieces and playing them over and over to make my exact plan clear in my head, and drilling each note so that I can go on auto-pilot.  Most excerpts are familiar from dozens of previous auditions, but some aren't.  I have only a few more days before I perform and some of those days will be spent on vacation with family and friends.  I am not primed for success in this audition.

But right now I am loving my playing.  I'm feeling strong, and confident, and although many of these excerpts are less familiar, there are not any I can't play.  I don't expect to win, but my goal on stage is to show well what I am capable of.  To be awesome if not perfect.  And, especially, to leave the stage feeling that I played up to my ability, not that I gave up or defaulted to an apologetic place.

So the preparation I am putting in is very directed and mindful.  I'm not drilling the excerpts, and I'm not listening to them over and over on repeat.  I'm finding one SPECIFIC element of each that I can grab onto before I begin. For some it's a specific interval.  For some a character.  For some a tempo, or a setup in which I mentally imagine the entrance in the orchestra.

I won't have the option to play a cue for myself between excerpts on the stage, as my students are being coached to do before they enter for their solo pieces, but I know my oboe.  I know it well.  If my task is to start on an awkward middle C with a full, vibrating, forward moving sound, I know what that feels like, and I can visualize and prepare for it before I start.  The times I don't play well are the times that I launch in unprepared to a piece I think I know, and allow myself to be caught off guard by a sticky interval that I should have remembered was coming.  I can play comfortably in tune in Pulcinella, as long as I start with a low enough pitch center.  I can nail all of the notes in La Scala as long as I remember that I have to take special care of the low Gs.

If I still had the 6 weeks that I had back when I received the excerpt list, I might treat this differently.  But this is where I am and what I can do.  I know I can play the oboe.  For now, I am preparing my starting cues for each piece.  I am setting myself up for success with the hope that given a good enough start, the magic can happen.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Preparing Your Reed Case

I had a huge performance this past weekend - the Rouse Oboe Concerto on my orchestra's final Masterworks concert.  We all know that reeds can be unpredictable and that the need to actually craft a crucial piece of your instrument can be a huge stressor, so my goal was to take that piece of the worry off the table as much as possible.

How do you make sure you have the best reed possible on the big day? 

I've seen students and colleagues treat this problem in three main ways: saving, obsessing, and collecting.

Some people discover a good reed, and immediately tuck it into the "special" reed case, the one that doesn't come out to every gig, and just wait for the "special" time to use it.  They'll play their daily gigs and practice on "normal" reeds, withholding the "special" one for the big concert.

Some people begin weeks in advance, trying extra hard with every single reed that they make.  A basically good reed is not good enough, and they wreck potential reeds left and right trying to perfect their technique to make something that vibrates exactly right, articulates cleanly, stabilizes itself at precisely 440 - and until they find it they can't be dragged away from the reed desk.  They'll go to bed disappointed every night because the perfect reed has still eluded them.

I will admit that I see problems with both of these techniques.  Reeds change over time, and they change from venue to venue, and the weather can change in ways that are outside your control.  The reed you "saved" in mid-March might be unplayable by your concert in early April, and you've wasted weeks when you could have been happily playing on a good reed and continuing to work on more of them.  And life is too short to huddle over a reed desk feeling frantic when you could be actually practicing your repertoire, or working on your breath support by exercising outside in the fresh air, or learning more about life and music by living and listening.

Me, I'm a collector.  I started three weeks ago to consciously add reeds to my case.  I focus on quantity, on the presumption that quality will take care of itself.  It's also the case that in my life I can't count on knowing what reed I need from one gig to the next, since every venue is different, and I knew I wouldn't be in the Morris Performing Arts Center until a few days before my performance, which is too late to reliably make from scratch the exact reed I knew I would want.

Since I'm such a high volume reed-maker, that conscious ramp-up of production specifically meant that in each batch of reeds I wound, I put two instead of one on the premium cork tubes that I use for myself.  I'm not averse to using a reed built on synthetic cork, and I'll proudly play on anything that is up to the task - but I know from experience that my own best reeds usually emerge on a Pisoni tube, so that's what I pushed.

Someone who makes one reed a day might double it, to two.  Someone who orders three per month might make it five for the two months before their event.  The point is to have many choices and to have time to break everything in so you know what you have.

As I finished each large batch, I consciously chose more reeds for myself than I normally would have, and practiced on them in rotation. In normal times, I add maybe two new reeds each week to my case (retiring older ones as I go) - but for the past few weeks I pulled a new one each day and practiced on it and finished it to my liking.  I was also conscious of keeping older reeds which still had life, though I am always unabashed about removing and breaking off reeds which have functional problems or which don't make me happy for whatever reason.

Some days, the new reed didn't work out, and some of the nearly-finished ones got sold out from under me, but when I began this final busy week (eleven rehearsals and performances, including four full run-throughs of the concerto, three meetings, eight students, regular reed shipments), I arrived at the first rehearsal with 22 good reeds in my case.  Some were older, most were newish, and I had had satisfactory practice sessions on every one.

It turned out that in the hall, in front of the orchestra, I needed bigger, beefier reeds than I would have expected, and I was happy that I had a wide selection to choose from.  It also turned out that I wanted the softer, older reeds desperately, for the other works on the concert and for the quintet services in the daytimes - and I had what I needed. On the whole I would say that I was perfectly happy with my reed options for the week.

On the whole I would say that I was perfectly happy with my reed options for the week.

That's such an unusual sentence for an oboist that I had to repeat it. Three weeks of active collecting brought me to a place of security, and this is a technique I recommend for any major oboe event.


Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Priorities

I know myself.  When I get stressed, the first thing to go is any sense of priority.  I always have a million projects going, and the closer I get to the completion of any one of them, the less I want to focus appropriately on it. The new ones are more fun. I know that about myself, but it's a hard habit to break.

I am performing the Christopher Rouse Oboe Concerto with the South Bend Symphony in 10 days.  I am talking about it for the newspaper tomorrow, I'm filming a promotional video on Friday, and I need to prepare my talking points for these. I need to keep playing it daily to make sure that my ducks stay in their row. I should probably put out a blog post and a FaceBook announcement and maybe a newsletter promoting the concert. My costuming could use a little more attention.

But what's really interesting to me, and what I'm dying to focus on, is the redecoration of my oboe studio which will happen sometime this summer. I would far rather surf around on Pinterest looking for ideas or begin to sketch out the design of my new reed desk than actually think about the big performance I have coming up.

I'd rather think about the structure and rollout of the price increase which is coming to my reed business next month.  I'd rather think about sending promotional emails to teachers about Oboe Reed Boot Camp, which is August 6-7.  I'd MUCH rather start working on the music for my upcoming CD, Music That SHOULD Have Been Written for the Oboe.  I'd even rather read reviews about new printer/scanner/copiers (because I hate mine SO MUCH).

It feels annoying and boring and pedantic to have to keep dragging my focus back to the nearest-term project. I've been working on this piece for a year.  I've performed it with piano four times.  I worked with our Music Director on it yesterday.  I am absolutely looking forward to next week's rehearsals ad performance, but I'm mentally and emotionally ready to put it away and move on.

This is normal, this phase of the cycle, but I haven't found a way to make peace with it.  What I will do is obsessively list the things I have to do, and do them, and get them done... and wait for the end of the day when I can escape into those fun printer reviews once more, and dream of the time - coming soon - when I can throw my whole self into a NEW project once more.

Oh.  And don't miss this May 7 concert.  The Rouse is spectacular, the South Bend Symphony is a great orchestra, and despite my grouching I cannot wait to perform!  Details HERE.

Friday, April 22, 2016

Bringing the Oboe Along With You

I have a new motto this year, which I use for myself and my students alike.

Bring the Oboe Along With You.

Musically, I'm a phraser.  I'm an ideas girl.  I love to make a plan and GO for it, full speed ahead and damn the torpedoes.  I obsess about momentum and flow, both for myself and my students.  And traditionally, I have prized the big phrasing ideas and the thrill of the chase over the actual execution. 

Let's be clear - I'm pretty good.  But I have permitted mistakes to go by unchallenged, as long as I was proud of the work I was doing.  Careless or lazy errors I could beat myself up for, but as long as my head was in the game and my intentions were good I didn't mind when notes didn't quite speak on time or the low register was a little messy or a slur didn't go.

Image result for we judge ourselves by our intentions but others by their actionsAnd then I heard this quote, on some podcast I was listening to.  I can't even remember now where it came from - Stephen Covey, originally, if the internet is to be believed.  And it struck me HARD.  Of course I notice mistakes other people make!  Of course I am aware of people's errors in execution, and OF COURSE I judge them, a little.  Of course I do.

In my head, as I played, it was always Oops!  Well, that's live music.  At least it was exciting.  Oops! Well, that's why they say the oboe is hard.  Good thing I'm making great music! Oops!  Well, darn - I could play that at home!

What I say now, preemptively, is How am I going to bring the oboe along with me on that next phrase?  What do I need to do to make sure that I sound like an oboist that can play?

My new higher expectations are helping my students, too.  I used to say constantly in my teaching, Yes!  Yes!  I heard that, I love it!  You'll just need to clean it up a little and it will be all there!

What I say now, though, is Yes!  Yes!  I heard that!  Now play it again and make sure you bring the oboe along with you.

It works for me and for them, and for everything, and I love it.  It simply means, Make sure that your execution keeps up with your intentions.

And it's made all the difference in the world for all of us.

The way I think about my work goes in cycles.  Sometimes I'm obsessed with sound.  Sometimes I'm obsessed with WHETHER sound is important or not.  Sometimes I'm thinking about vibrato, and its place in every note of every phrase, sometimes I'm working on projection so I sound huge, and sometimes I'm working on amazing pianissimo playing so I can disappear.  Sometimes I'm thinking about attacks, and sometimes about releases. It's hard to work on every skill all the time as I perform something different every week.

But what I'm realizing is that I have already worked on all of these skills!  I KNOW how to make the oboe work, in almost every circumstance! This is just a mindset shift, to a place where my first priority is to sound competent all the time.  Where my minimum standard is to not miss anything that a layman would notice.

And my big discovery has been that it  doesn't take away from ANYTHING else.  It doesn't make my phrasing less exciting. It doesn't mean that my attacks are less superb or my pianissimo less delicate.  It just means that I'm keeping an overarching awareness on execution all the time, and making adjustments as the moment requires - but all of the nuances and details are still there, and they often come out even better than they otherwise would have.

This is probably something that everyone else in the business has already discovered.  But for me, at this point in my career, it's thrilling to have a new idea to work with, one that is measurably helping my playing. I am very intentionally engaging all of my skills, in every outing, and feeling fantastic about it.

Bring the Oboe Along With You.